Anyway, in that time, I have acquired quite a bit of change. For starters, I went through my third pregnancy and had another baby, A BOY!!! Yup, God finally granted us the blessings of having a little boy, and we are thrilled; Especially the girls.
If that isn't enough change for you, here's more, almost two months ago, my husband left on a 400 day deployment with his Army unit (it may take less time). So right about now, I think that's all the change I can handle. Needless to say it's been a tough few months. Aubrey, daddy's little girl, has championed the time that Papa has been gone, so far; up until a few days ago, when missing him finally started to kick in. She's who I call, my Drama Queen. If you knew her, you'd know that that is no understatement, so that's a lot to handle in and of itself. Ady Maeve has surprised me. I thought for sure, as much of a mama's girl as she is, that Papa being gone wouldn't really affect her as much. I realize now that though she is closest to me, she is most like him, relates most to him, and now it seems as though she is the one that misses him most. Of the kids, that is, because we all know Mama misses him the most ;-)
So Anyway, with that said, I know there are many, many, women (and men) out there who have had spouses deployed oversees, and I don't want to offend any of you. Every military spouses experience is different because all of our personalities are different. So please, please, please, don't take offense whenever it seems as though I'm not handling my husbands deployment as well as maybe you handled your loved ones deployment. It is a tough spot to be in, and I'd rather people help me deal with it then criticize me for not dealing with it differently. The truth is, I MISS MY HUSBAND, he's my best friend, and has been since long before we even dated. I feel like such a baby because I've seen and heard of so many wives who have gone through this and neither of them seemed as weak as I feel at times. Anyway, my blog isn't popular, like, at all, but if your a military spouse, and happen to see this, I could use a little wisdom and encouragement. Who knows, maybe another person going through all the separation anxiety of a deployment can benefit off of it too!
Till next time (and knowing me, who knows when that'll be lol!). As always, Yours Truely, Brenda!
